Well, what better way to start my first blog, and rise above my writer’s block than by keeping the default Title on my WordPress free post page. I have to apologise and explain. You see, my writers block is coming from different directions.
One, I am an introvert, somewhat fearful of digital technology. I’m soooo out of my comfort zone writing on the internet, but I am taking the advice of all those life coaches and motivational speakers who advise doing just that. So, here I am . . .
Secondly, there is so much I want to say and so many mothers I want to help in any way I can, that my fingers want to go in different directions on my keyboard to give everything I’ve got right here, right now. There is so much I know now, that I wished I knew before I did the bolt from my (self proclaimed) psychopathic husband. I wish I knew what I know now, when I was having the very first twinkling of needing to split, before I thought open communication in a marriage would conquer all. It can be the complete opposite. Open communication can kill you or come very close.
There is so much help out there if you know where to find it, and it can save your life and/or your children’s life.
Thirdly, I want to share my personal story to help other women see what direction they are heading in, to warn mothers to safeguard themselves for their sake and children’s sake, to help women see past their ‘now’ and have the knowledge and confidence to become self sufficient, collecting a strong support network to help them through any new directions in their life, how to be a better self, mother, provider, adviser. But to do that I will have to consciously face my nightmares of the past, and the slow but sure progression to being me again.